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The monotony of my life is getting to me. Everything is routine. Even the things I used to enjoy aren't as fun anymore.

Maybe I need some "me" time...? I don't know.
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I haven't had time to write much since I started work. Also, I'm in OC on my dad's computer and it makes my wrists hurt, even though I haven't typed anything at all.

Long story short: life is generally good. I have some fears about not being able to perform well at my internship, but I haven't lost faith in myself. Also, I seem to be absorbed in crime-related fiction lately (e.g. watching Oz, and reading History of Violence). It really makes me think about mankind and about the desire for resolution, the desire for personal justice at the expense of others, the way people take risky gambles (not in Vegas), and how that leads to a cycle of violence. At first, I thought, "This is just fiction."

Then I realized, people really ARE that extreme and that sort of thing is all over the world: wars, corruption, organized crime/hate, the whole shebang. I'm glad I'm not directly part of that. Also, I am really really glad I never lived during the Spanish Inquisition because those bastards make the inmates in Oz look like pansies.
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Friday Fiver: And maybe I should do the same

1. Have you ever run away?
Not in the literal sense, but I've had my fair share of avoiding responsibility.

2. What is the longest you've dated someone?
Four years, nine months, and running.

3. What don't you like to think about?
All the loose ends and uncertainties in my life. I don't know what to do about them. Sometimes, I wish I had a secretary/errand boy to help me manage it all and keep me in line. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes, feeling like I'm being pulled in so many directions at once, that instead of attacking the problems, I just break down and try to forget them.

4. What was your last illness?
Ongoing allergies. Headaches.

5. Do you like to get revenge?
I've never really gotten revenge, but I think about it when I'm angry.
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You know what's worse than m-m-mold? M-m-maggots. Especially if they're in the banana that you were *just* about to eat. *gags* (True story.)

I had a long sleep last night and a very very long, epic dream. I found influences from Sliders, The Great Depression, Joe's dad, Legend of Zelda, Harry Potter, Paprika, and who knows what else. Pretty incredible though. I think my goal in the dream changed from bit to bit, but mostly I was traveling through alternate versions of world, trying to get back to my own, using vintage cars and old VW Buses as vortexes to other dimensions. The scenes were so incredibly stunning. One of the earliest was when I was dropped from a vortex straight into the middle of a turbulent ocean at night and found a baby in bunting floating a few yards ahead. Other scenes included rows of dilapidated cars on dusty yellow vastness; it really reminded me of the Depression.

I think I tend to live vicariously through my dreams. Things I wish would happen tend to happen, although things I worry about happen too, and those dreams are awful. For the most part, I think I really enjoy being asleep, awaiting my next adventure-of-a-lifetime.
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Friday Fiver: Beyond the Pale

1. Favorite pastry?
Croissants with chocolate inside! Especially the ones from Vie de France.

2. How do you like to waste time?
I have roughly 50 webcomics that I read regularly, plus Mypace, Facebook, E-mail, Wikipedia, IMDB, print comic books, regular books, cleaning my room, and calling Joe incessantly. I am currently reading Harry Potter 7; I'm only 2/3rds of the way done though, so don't spoil me!

3. How would you describe your complexion?
Not as nice as I would like.

4. What do you hang on to that you should really get rid of?
Old bottles of lotion that are *almost* empty, but not quite -- there's not enough lotion left for the pumps to work though --I always figure I can scrape the remains from the bottom if I need to.

5. What is the last thing that made you hurt?
A depression that came out of nowhere. I blame lack of sleep and sporadic eating habits.